It's sobering to realize you're not as great as you think. Everyone has hang-ups, but you get along pretty well through life. And then, one day out of the blue, you come face-to-face with a major flaw (or flaws) that you had never seen before. What?!? Do I have to fix this, too?? Once again I'm reminded of Romans 12:3 "Do not think of yourselves more highly than you ought, but rather, think of yourselves with sober judgment in accordance with the measure of grace given you."

What a thought. To think of yourself according to the measure of grace God gave you. If I see myself through God's grace, I think I would be overwhelmed by the love the Father has for me. And yet, I would not be blind to all the imperfections - those things that separate me from him - and I would hate them for it. How would I live, then? That question has become a mantra of sorts for me.

I'm not satisfied with my life as is. I'm not satisfied with who I still am. There's an unnamed yearning that seems to be pulling in all different directions and in utter confusion I just collapse. I am weeding out unnecessary things that rob my time, like television. Now, I have more time to read and pray and learn Lindy Hop. :)

And I'm reading some really good books!
Small Footprint, Big Handprint - basically simplify your life and make a big impact for Christ.
The Journey to Desire - living out your God-given desires in a Christ-centered life